In recent years it appears as though I feel the need to give my blog a facelift every year or so.
I wouldn’t necessarily call myself a perfectionist, but, I would say I’m a visionary and I have thoughts and ideas running through my head non-stop. Creatively it’s a blessing, when I need to slow down and relax, it’s a curse.
I think constant longing for change is a seasonal thing. I’m not talking Spring, Summer, Autumn, Winter per se – but seasons and phases in my life.
If you’ve been keeping up with my YouTube channel, the past five months has seen me pack up two bags and start a new single life in the United States. Was it a big move? On paper, Yes, but for me, it honestly didn’t really feel like it. It was just something that needed to be done and I got it done. That’s how I saw it anyway.
But the point to this ramble was that with each phase in my life, I feel as though I need to rewrite the ‘About’ section of my blog. It’s a new time and a new chapter for me and I like to keep things as raw, open and vulnerable as possible.
I’m currently reading over my last ‘About’ section and how I described my life then (eight months ago). Surprisingly, I don’t feel like anything’s really changed. I wrote: “I’m an extrovert. I don’t at all possess those girl-next-door qualities. I’m by no means simple, well presented and in no way do I have a clean mouth” – this remains true! I also spoke about how I’m still not the most confident person even though I’m an extrovert, this is also the same.
So while it still seems like nothing has really changed, I have been working on myself the past few months trying to find that inner zen. For someone who’s always on-the-go and actually likes being on-the-go, it’s really hard to come down from the high. My job as a journalist expects me to work both day and night shifts sporadically which makes sleeping and relaxing for an already wound-up insomniac that much harder. I’m also still dealing with an unwelcomed diagnosis of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome after dealing with a bad bout of Glandular Fever, or Mono like my US friends like to call it. I’m not going to sugar-coat it, it’s incurable, it’s not nice, it easily brings you down and it’s really hard.
I don’t think I’m in denial anymore over the Chronic Fatigue, but it’s a daily struggle. Some days are fine, others are really really hard. Accepting it for what it is, I’ve recently returned to journaling and although it’s only been a few weeks, I do believe it’s helping. So, this season in my life is about finding peace, love and happiness in the best way possible. I still love talking about entertainment and lifestyle but I also want this blog to be a happy, peaceful and mental health friendly sanctuary. Physical health means nothing if our emotions and mental health are not up to scratch. So, let’s work on this together, to become the happiest and most thriving versions of ourselves.
I want this blog to be as raw as possible – so raw that I’ve honestly written (rambled on in) this ‘About’ Section in under five minutes, and no matter what I’ve said, I’m not planning to edit it.
The concept of new seasons and new beginnings was introduced to me only recently by one of my dearest and most wise friends – and it’s something that really resonates with me. I’ll be talking a lot about ‘seasons’ on this blog - so, in this particular season, that’s me on an A4 page.
Thank you so much if you’ve read this far. I now encourage you to grab your headphones (or earplugs) and I hope you enjoy the raw, real and relatable soundtrack of my life.